harkened back to the days of
less drug use
and doing something productive
and yeah that just doesn't exist anymore
sorry
nobody wants a tranny
why does the world hate me so much
am I really that bad of a person
Im not a pedophile
I dont want to hurt kids I dont want to hurt anybody
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cant imagine why
people would think
that all trannies are a bunch of fuckin degenerate pieces of shit
makes me sick
I almost left my house and went for a bike ride today but then I said nah fuck that
nobody wants to see my ass
in public
can't fucking blame them
Im stuck in this house
forever
I don't want to go anywhere
I even did my makeup I was almost gonna go
almost
but the humiliation of being who I am just fucking destroyed me
cant do it
I dont have the spoons to pretend that stereo types don't exist
maybe this is just a seattle problem
is LA any better up_the_irons
I don't really want to be around tweakers and shit Im not into drugs really
heroin addicts
disgusting problems that I don't want anything to do with
I don't like drugs and alcohol at all really
I do dissociatives right now because its the only way I can keep from smashing my fuckin head against the wall
I gotta figure something out dude I gotta get a fucking job
i do not want to keep living this way I'm about to lose my shit
Im sorry I dont have much of a filter right now I've just been abused incessantly by people its hard to
up_the_irons: I've been dialing into your BBS here for years dude, how the fuck am I not working for you or somebody like you who just gets it. somebody who doesn't pass judgement on me for being trans and fuckin just harp on me constantly because they don't know me and suspect that I'm a pedophile which you I can understand why people might fucking wonder given this stereotypical shit but no that is
not me
thats the whole FUCKING reason I quit my job at amazon
its weird when you think about it but the shit is real
I don't like being fucked with
Im not an sjw
I just dont like being fucked with constantly by people
lol
this shit has driven me to the point of this autistic rant. I need to just get out of seattle I think I cant stand this place anymore
no idea where else I might be better off though
is that even possible to find anywhere, I dont mind doing basic shit that isn't particularly interesting I just dont want to be fucked with by people, and I don't wnat want to be alone anymore
I dont want to be with somebody who is crazy and unstable
why'd I give up on my job dude
stupid
I need music so I can just chill the fuck out and not HATE myself so much right now x_x
any suggestions?
k glitch mob it is
literally just released a new track
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXTGGAStaDE
YouTube video: "Chapter II - The Glitch Mob - Take Me With You (feat. Arama)" by The Glitch Mob
apparently lot of people need jobs
and this stupid place where i live
too many people here
makes me fuckin crazy o.o
too many people I have nothing in common with
I need to find a job
I dont even care dude I'll live in a yakuza stall under a stair case
I just need to get out of this place
something to do
bored as fuck
something besides,
rmac
ddial
...
erratic: mike-burns mercutio : lol
erratic: LA is pretty shitty, sorry to say
eh yeah I visited once it seemed like it would be ok
I think I've just been here in seattle for too long sometimes
but yeah I can imagine LA would wear on me too after awhile
I haven't been out much lately though it'd probably help if I actually left the house more, problem is I just don't want to I'm tired of the cold
its starting to get kinda nice again though
What are you all US-based people doing for St. Patty's Day tomorrow?
A tradition I've brought from my time in Boston: hiding.
hahaha
where do you reside now?
Brooklyn - I think my Caribbean neighborhood will be quieter and safer than downtown Boston was, but a tradition is a tradition!